I was disillusioned with coaching because my earlier coaches convinced me that I am the problem, and coaching became a stressful obsession for me as I was constant looking for “issues” to heal, so that I can have the relationships I wanted. I spent lots of money and time believing them saying that I was not doing enough healing/coaching, and that was why issues still persisted with not much change. While I did experience some shifts during coaching sessions, they did not seem to last long, maximum a week, ie, till it was time for the next session. So, a sort of co-dependance was forming there, which, ironically, was what I was trying to heal. Hence I just cut off all ties. Also, most of those coaches had zero coaching experience, and empathy, so they were often rude. This made me hesitate to look for any more coaches, and just self-heal.

I’ve not had any coaches use a workbook before, to track my healing progress. One only system of healing had a monthly follow-up questionnaire to fill, which was a little vague. The rest of the coaches would check if there were any outer changes, ie, in money, or work, so it was stressful in a way, because I did not see any shifts in those areas. Instead I was steadily getting broke, as all the money I had in savings was being used, since I did not have a job.

I was trying to understand myself more, and why past sessions didn’t seem to have worked, though I spent so much time, and energy and money on them. I was also trying to get to the root of anger, and poverty, and obesity.

I have always enjoyed the interactions with you [Natalia], as you are not judgemental at all, you are very patient, are a great listener, and take your time to respond to a query, and give a fully rounded response. You also share your keen insights from my shares, that help me to look at my situations from a totally different perspective than what I am used to, and that gives me a whole “Eureka” moment, and I feel the shift immediately in my mind, and then my body. A deep peace then settles in, from finally having understood the cause or the essence of the upset. And with your current way of coaching, I absolutely love the looking for a win-win approach. It is so refreshing from the earlier coaching where I felt I was still losing even though it was supposed to be a healing process, where I was kind of coerced to forgiving people who I did not feel ready to forgive. And in those sessions I felt I had to prove I’m getting better, even though I wasn’t feeling it. But you give ample time and space to heal and let the healing come through, with no pressure to do a next session, or show some results, so I really appreciate that in you. You even wait patiently when I have lot of resistance, and don’t rush me or trying to tell me what I should feel or say, which I also appreciate a lot. As these are things that I have trying to come out of too, being told what to think and feel, and being rushed to get results. So I truly appreciate the kind way you take me through sessions.

There is a lot of peace and recognition and therefore understanding of triggers now. While triggers still may upset me, I am quicker now to recognise it as a trigger, and I know there will be a solution, so I feel more inclined to look for one. I also feel ok to sit with the trigger and let the answer come to me naturally of what to do next. With some triggers, I still find a reluctance to sit with myself and to meditate and do yoga etc, but it’s not as high a resistance as before. I also feel more value for myself now. I really appreciate the session where you made me see that I can take the value of money and put it to myself thereby helping see how I was placing all my value on money instead of seeing that the money is valuable because I have it, rather than I am only valuable if I have money, which is how I have remained poor all my life till now. I also now look for ways to support myself , with whatever money I have, in areas where I need support, and I now feel open to asking for it from others too, because I now see that in supporting myself this way I am giving myself more value than I have ever done previously, and doing that makes me feel good.